Don’t be “That Guy”
When I was younger, I really loved apologetics. There is something compelling about knowing the answers. I liked the surety that it helped give me to know that I had a reasoned faith, a faith that was right and true.
I don’t think I was that annoying guy who always had to pick a theological fight to prove that I knew the answers. But, I could have been. I know at least one occasion where the stories that are told about a particular series of email interactions make me out to be “that guy.” I went back a couple of years ago and reread those emails and don’t think I was, but I certainly did not always keep the tone that I should have in the conversation.
Embrace the mystery
As I have grown older, I’ve become less and less comfortable with the surety that I once relished. Don’t get me wrong. I still have strong opinions. I wouldn’t write this blog if I didn’t. But, I have also grown to realize that there is much more to the world and to my faith than I can ever fully wrap my mind around. I’ve grown to believe in the importance, even the necessity, of mystery. A God who is not, at least in part, a mystery to us, is not a God worth worshiping.
This has, of course, made it much more difficult to know the answers. How can we know all the answers in this immeasurably complex world about about a God who is infinitely more complex than this unfathomable universe He created?
I know for some, not knowing the answers is scary. It certainly is in some ways. But, it can also be freeing.
That arrogant little “theologian”
I started teaching college in 2007 and am now at my third evangelical institution. One thing that I’ve seen at school, but sometimes even more in the churches I attended with students, is a smugness. I saw this even before I started teaching when my church in NYC would have summer interns. Many of them, not all, were rather smug.
Part of me doesn’t blame these students of theology and ministry. They have a heart to know God and they work hard to understand him as well as they can. That is rewarding and confidence building. But, it can also lead to pride.
But, let’s not pretend this is just a problem with the neophyte theologians. I’ve seen plenty of pastors, theologians, and apologists who have the same attitude. It is really off-putting.
Apologetics… A.K.A. letting you know how right I am
That off-putting attitude is what got me thinking somewhat negatively about apologetics a few years ago. I don’t know if apologetics has always been this way. But, I’ve felt over the last few years that apologetics has become less about swaying hearts than belittling minds. I know this isn’t true for all apologists but I’ve seen plenty who may have the right answers but clearly have the wrong hearts.
When apologetics becomes about making sure you have the right answer to everything without worrying about having the right heart, it is a problem. I’ve seen and heard apologists who take delight in showing their intellectual prowess while belittling their “opponents.” The problem is a humiliated mind never changes. A humiliated mind is not open to the risk of change because it is too busy protecting itself from the harm done it.
People don’t care how much you know
During my 20’s and 30’s I spent a lot of time working in sales. One thing that they drilled into us early on was, “People don’t care how much you know, until they know how much you care.” This axiom is even more true when it comes to the weighty matters of faith and eternity.
A compelling apologetic isn’t showing people that we have all the answers but showing them that we have profound love. It is also a harder apologetic. We can’t do it out of pride. We can’t do it by studying hard. We can’t do it on our own.
We often feel like we have to have the answers. Sometimes, however, the most compelling thing a person of faith can say is, “I don’t know.” People are often more interested in walking toward Truth with someone else who doesn’t know, but they trust, than they are with that “arrogant little theologian” who always knows. Plus, it is more honest…we don’t always know.
One of the greatest problems people have
One night after a late night of work, my sales manager, a few co-workers, and I were walking out to our cars. Two people started arguing about something that didn’t matter, I don’t remember what it was but I think it had something to do with car tires or rims. My manager said, “One of the greatest problems that people have is the need to be right.” That has stuck with me over the years and I’ve often talked about this profound insight with my children.
We all want to be right. But, the NEED to be right comes out of our insecurity and our pride. Two destructive sides of the same coin. I see this in my children and in myself. We too often argue about things that just don’t matter, things that not only won’t change the world but they won’t change anything.
I see this also in apologetics and discussions of faith. We argue about things, anything. We have to be right. Sometimes the subjects are important. Sometimes they aren’t. But, they almost always miss the point.
An Apologetic of Love
I have never seen a person argued into faith. I have seen people loved into faith. Christ said that we will be known by our love. When was the last time that an apologist having a debate with some skeptic was known by their love? Maybe it has happened, but I haven’t seen it. I don’t mean to say that apologetics has no place. It does. But, I believe these apologetics of logic are secondary to an apologetic of Love.
We want to know that our faith is reasonable. We want to know that we aren’t being foolish. That is where apologetics is at its best. When it is reinforcing the direction Love has already moved us.
In sales, it is often said that buying decisions are emotional but people use logic to justify them. I think there is a corollary in decisions of faith. I believe very few decisions of faith are purely logical. God, typically through others, touches us with his love. He draws our hearts too him. The connection is emotional and spiritual. We desire to take the leap of faith. But, we also desire not to be foolish. We want to know that while a leap is required it is a reasonable leap. We will never be able to logic ourselves to God. But, reason can help assure us that the leap we desire to take, into arms of Love, is reasonable.
A Supra-rational Faith
Believers in the God who is love don’t have an irrational faith. But, we also don’t have a rational faith. It is supra-rational, beyond reasoning. Reasoning can support it but is never sufficient.
God’s prodigal grace and unbounded love is also supra-rational. Reason does not disprove it, nor does it prove it. But, a love which is beyond reason is the best evidence for a faith that is beyond reason.
Unfortunately, we too often try to box in God’s transcendent love. We box it in with our walls of insecurity and pride. We box it in with our need to be right.
Maybe sometimes rather than striving so hard to be right we need to simply say, “I don’t know… but Love.”